选择放下
人更轻松了
只要有你们让我觉得温馨^^就足够了。
我不需要那种来得有企图的关心。
我需要的是你们真心对待我。
已经足够。。。。。

昨晚我知道什么叫做‘朋友’
她告诉我‘朋友’是‘你利用我。我利用你’
我听了其实心很痛。。。为什么人不能好好地对待一个人。
你对他好，他并不是完全对你好。我讨厌这种现实。
难道这就是人？？必须去接受？？？
我很单纯。。真的！！！单纯的来有够笨。我会以为一旦你对他好，他也会对你好。
现在我知道了。。不是的。原来，他对你好是因为有企图的。。
我学习着如何对一个不值得我去尊重的人。。我不能再这么心软了。
可能是我真的完全没避忌自己如何对待人，
我和你成为朋友，我就会真的用真心去对待你。毫无犹豫。。我就是这样。
我不会反驳。。。我不会说‘不'
我讨厌这样的朋友

• 说来就来，说走就走
• 拿我笨，就因为我单纯
• 我真心对你，你负心对我
• 他要求就要我有求必应
• 我要求他就多多借口
• 用烂借口来浮浅我
• 有企图心！！更讨厌！
• 利用我！！！！更更讨厌
  
• 无事不登三宝殿

所以总结来说，别对一个人太好！！
世界上坏人多了，也别再作好人。只会让你更伤。

ONLY ONE

MICHAEL JACKSON

HE IS THE LEGEND
ONLY ONE
AMAZING...when heard he was gone!!OMG..
still like a joke for me...unbelievable !
he really has gone

i love his song...YOU'RE NOT ALONE

M.J
SUPER STAR
ONLY ONE

bibubibu

yaya..TODAY im absent again.
one weeks me absent 2 times^^
monday-lazy,moody,tired.+ no reason
friday- tired,headache ,female pain==, not well
it make me confusing..
be strong &relax..
start from now...get ready and go...
don't waste time again.just 4 months....OMG!
+H1N1 be seriously in our country..hey guys,must protect yourself.take care..
drink more water.

如果掉下来就要勇敢地爬起来。
向上爬。。。。。
一切都在自己手中。
说的对：‘我在乎人的眼光，我是输不起的人’ 我承认的：我的能力有限，不是聪明人
自从昨晚。。。。呵！老娘也是有‘火’别当我是病猫。好欺负！
你他娘的。。。。。
好了。。去补习了。好巧的，今天三哥和我一样翘课哦！哈哈。。没下次拉。

卟。。。。卟。。。。卟。。。。。。

wakaka....apa ni!!
冲了凉，什么都清醒干净了。。
哈哈。。。一切就由它过去。
我们还是朋友啊
哈哈。。。人的能力和力量是无限的
得空再和你们分享吧。时间有限
今天得到了启发
出发咯。。我开跑咯~~~~~
卟。。。。卟。。。。卟。。。。。。

sorry bum
i love you

a.m

time is 5.20 a.m now..
4.13 a.m i woke up^^
i will be fine
don't worry
sometimes mood is hard to guess out,what it's thinking
last9 mum keep on asking me what happened on me.why me looked moody?
i answered : NOTHING!
I KEEP ON SILENT.done my works
STAYED IN MY ROOM
ALONE
luckily gt myin accompany me^^thx alot
keep our promised

last9 he told me
:tmr will be better==

YES!!

YES!!i did it!
sorry
at the end i lost control, and i need someone shoulder..who can lend me??since from last night something happened around me!it's second times ~break my heart;) its deep inside;) im smile??siao....that's not me!
he told me ......he spot into my baby bum..;) everything was so surprise ...never ever thought the girl is my baby bum...hahaha..today i had share with her about him...my face cant lie everyone.^^althought me keept on smile or laugh...but emotion was show out in my face.i look down.yes!im trying to be strong....but!!i lost~kakakaka...when walked back home after searched a tuition centre with wei and ni.~down from bus,i was taking my umbrella walking by alone.i told myself should be strong and all has gone ,no way to take it all back..
i told truth for him~how brave of me!!yes..i did it!you're so hard to know you..
today i thought so much in class....thought you just a main character in my story.
now,will be share .my story is END
close file
i should to put it down and concentrated on my study, give me a times cz it's not a easy work
juan has asked me about my face in msn..everytime i thinking or worrying about my face she must will came out and support me to treat a doctor as fast. thanks alot
but me starting lazy and tired...im not charm girl...no need do anything else to prove myself!! im lost !!! ru, you're ugly cause you lazy!! almost 7 years .it dint leave from me!! i hate you!!!i hateeeeeeeee..why all girl can be white white and beauty ,but i cant!!!!!heh heh...im not strong!!!!! im just a simple girl ,i have my own style to friends or plays with someone .im not pro in chats with guys..

unlucky girl

end the story

23/6/2009
by.a_ru

beh b'day+ no reason

hey...time is going so fast...since me away from bed..already 2houres more! finally ,me absent school today,reason: NO REASON!mum& dad asked me : WHY?me answer : NO REASON!dont know why?my mind cant stop to thinking about something~how bad?!i had trying to stop!even i know that is my problem,is me think to much..that right! last time told myin my feelling..she is right!she remind me something but its really hurt! cry again~haha..so weak izzit??!!lol~~ya~maybe today me absent school is because of this??cause my FEEL moody??start to scare to meet him at school..althought not always~but scare too!he want the girl of wonderful in his life~ha..im not!yeah;) hope all thing passing out now! ;)2ml is someone birthday,i need send a blessing for him anot??as a friend, it need^^harlo ,girl ~dont think so much.dont know why ,last night my tear drop again,when sleeping alone ,sms,listening music..i lost my way and control..maybe is calm down my mood..this a way for me to relax~huh~~i am moody girl + emo girl.haha...life can live without someone.haha.......this my conclusion^^
ya~~let talking about beh b'day
BEH
the person i always mentioned in blog
since she go NS + she back from NS..everything i had posted in here.she is super women^^haha
today is her birthday 22nd on june ^^so lucky can post up in here~+ me absent school today.
more describe about beh.pls visit shianne aka ssk blog^^and this can prove beh really is famous person in me and your life.^^ she is a famous person in surrounding frens.


when waiting guys,shianne aka ssk captured for me~



when chit chat together,really had a lot of fun at there.it a funny days^^haha..you alls make me enjoyed life.FRINEDS

showing the part of blew candle+crazy part






funny??it happy day~~haha....both of us are playful guys..

end this part

before we going back ...we taking picture in MCD~
muwars...love u alls


my life cant without you^^aixian aka BUM


after this gathering,me ,beh,shianne aka ssk ,aixian aka bum decided go sg.wang for NO REASON.crazy of us~haha....go lepak lepak without reason!lol...but this not a first times for me ~pity is wei wei cant join us,she need go taking dinner with family at that night~huh huh...if not,we will more crazy ~

when waiting lrt....ntg to do..this is mine and shianne.this our style^^


reached sg wang..capture when really ntg can to do...haha...by shianne


left : capture by me

right : by kakak (salegirl)

yeah~~drunkard come again!me and bum suggest drink a beer before back home then we bought from 7-11.and bought a chips.yeah~~found some places to njoy our drinks.
we had promise .you know i know la.....haha...k?haha ,,enjoy together..im so rebel.right?yes
haha....hate who break my heart before!




i love this picture so much^^


me and the b'day girl
you are so important for me too^^thx for your caring


'end'
im pro in capture~thx

drunk

about my drunk face!haha...
last week i drunk a wine by myself
ALONE!ALONE AT HOME.
before mum & dad hang out, me asked dad help me open the wine,dint get any permission
walao ,man!i drunk half bottle~~at the im not drunk la...just some wing~so WEAK~but something happened between me & him!haha..im so dare+ funny !MAN~
HAHA...

I AM DRUNKARD!lol

omg

i leave my family at home~me at cousin house now~i am so stupid yoo..
today is father day
i cant celebrate with my dad,he is busy in settle new industry
i know dad was tiring ...every night come back lately because want earn money for us
thank you daddy~i love you
calling my dad now to wish him happy father day
last night was a crazy funny day for me!

post later^^to be continue

feerless

ask me WHY?
i cant answer you as well...
at the end, i taken my mid term result, i trying to be strong and asked big girl cant easy get cry...start from reopen school,time was passed so fast for me .everyday work a same else wake up-eating-studying-tuition-sleeping ...am i not good to manage my time??why i get a bull result on this time?i had do revision!but cant memorise what i study..heh! about today,..just done my account & addmath homework..im asking myself dont up to bro room for online+ing..at the end..im lost!! i want release my feeling.this time i get a lot of obtacles in life!how my future??i was scaring ....crying is not a good way for me!!! pls:stop do the stupid thing,ru?k!!! nobody is understand what am i caring,worrying,scaring,and really stressful...am i put too stress for myself???no!!i am SURE!...JUST WORRY..NOT STRESS! i had no plan for my life~i lost my way~when get the target result for SPM..i was starting scare..no matter can i do? when i been a weak girl mum& bro must will standing beside of me..and get a hugged from them.i am so lucky because having them in my life.thx a lot. ru not toldmy dad about my result, but my face are cant lie to anyone! this called emotional ! +you need stop take a competition with friends..and doing as well as you can ..if not the ROAD NOT TAKEN= dead!....
it been so long ..............................................................
haiz.................stop thinking any worse thing! its not a good way for me to alive~

it time to stop think about you
just let it past
be friend

和时间说我很忙了

好好过

大家还好吗?
今天天气转凉了,大家要照顾好身体哦，别着凉哦~
看见窗边的乌云,快要下大雨了......好棒! 净化环境...
今天看报章,蕉赖区和巴生区的污染环境最糟糕!
呵~可要检点..反醒反醒了...大家都有受教育的栽培应该都了解道理吧!
哈~

好了...下线了.
没有冲劲去写回那文章了.算吧.过去就让他过去.
我现在过的很好^^
我可不是大小姐哦。。我来自小康之家。^^谢谢
我只会想做某某的大小姐而已。。哈哈。。。谁？？咯~某某

我不想回到从前，一切就向前走吧。别回头看。。。记得！！
对我而言，回头不是岸。
抱歉

没了

什么都没了
还没上传这文章前，我打好了一篇！讨厌的！！电脑突然出问题！！
哦。。妈妈米娅~~~
写过噜~可惜感觉不一样了！
哈~`

迷路记

题目像不像小学的作文呢？上星期我就经历了。。。哈哈
忘了上传上星期五的迷路记
哈哈~~真的很好玩，害怕，也不知所措
照常的，练习完毕后和妮去补习两个乌龙婆兴致勃勃的搭巴士去，到站下了车，两人竟然不会路哦。。我们迷路了。。。在陌生的路幸好还有和妮一起，我们两抓紧手，咬紧牙根死命的找出路
问路人。。。过了短暂的时间，我们终于到了目的地！陌生的路真的会很害怕~~以后别这样冲了
很累得！！哎~~不过过去了。。。我还在这~没失踪^^哈哈
如果如失踪了，慌张的人会有几多呢？
哈哈
明天！！！呵~~我和妮会再去尝试下！这次我们不会那么鲁莽了~哈哈。。
会问好路，过后预测好时间。。。哈哈~~好期待吓~~总要突破的嘛~~我就是爱尝试！！
这就是我啦！路都是人造出来的。。。哈哈
明天！！！等我！！！！哈哈
离表演还有一星期，我们就从出江湖了！！！哈哈~~大家记得来哦
tt同学一定要来哦。。包你好玩兼好笑^^这可是我们的孩子哦~~哈哈。。做了妈妈。我们第一个孩子而且还是我们的最后的孩子^^哈哈。。。虽然累，但看见同伴们的努力，累得感觉都飞走了~你们真的很棒^^haha

回到家，马上找了位子把全身的疲累都放松在地上~呼~~振作！还有几天~~咬紧牙根！哈哈
我们就成功了^^
yeah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

holidays???

school holidays????ya~~but me nope...T.Tjust back from school,being alone again!!nobody be with me
holidays passed in drama & dance training~really so tired,,,but i had a fun at there..haha^^
after lunch....!!!online?!sh** nobody can chat with me.!am i so lame or cold?? *answer me*
then today he has online but just sent me a nudge then 。no talking。。。end!!!=.=......im weakness in chat?!??why he always act like cool!!!aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrteach me pls....where my friends??why my inbox message just assign by same person..1 week ago!!!!lol~~~!!!!!!!!!i hate this feel..leave me away!!!!!!!!!those guys are not caring me!!!!holiday was passing so fast...enjoyable with wei,ni,tong,theng and all society friend..haha...both are so funny guys in my life
start miss my school life.....busy in this holidays...never rest as well...+ ...never start my study plan..omy lord!!addmath,math,science,sej ,bm,bi.moral....all r waiting for me...but me not enuf time ....lack of energy to study well..==..omg!stress come agian!!relax relax my dear ~~~
relax...take a deep breath..opzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
my life being darkness
no time no time no time no time no time!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok
its time to rest [tuition later]
bye

是时候了吗？？

好了
该停了吗？-----好累哦真的好累。。。好好面对你们？是我自己的问题
我知道时间不多了。。。但是我还是没办法进入状况对不起。真的会不好过。。
---------------------------
在msn里和王子说了。。。哈哈。很搞笑
今天被婷发现了，电话里的他==
she still miss him??
累了一天
昨晚和bum聊，其实真的会害怕毕业后的我们会是怎样犹如陌生人般？？？？未知数........我相信。。。一定不会^^
hehe

sweet

感觉幸福甜甜滴
是空虚得不能完全拥有是事实，
但至少知道你还是在我身边

路还是要走下去
即使下了决定

越来越傻了
傻癫了一整天，舒服~这才是我。
假期过的很充实
别担心如了

部落格可是我滴至爱朋友
它比谁都了解我
它=我
我=它

原来最好的朋友是自己

不要离开我
我需要你时，请在我身边

……*……

miss ru??4 days gone~~
shopping with dar and laopo today
around 3 pm just making up and waiting laopo come my house
laopo was so lucky and sweet meet with HER DEAR...
he so care 4 my laopo^^laopo so sweet ya~~huh huh
this my laopo new phone( hello kitty phone)like it deeply ar~~QQQQQQQQQQQ
her dear sent for herrrrr`~
taking our lunch at madam wong
long time din hang out with laopo and dar
since first time we went out (just 3 of us) in form 1
we still are small girl and blurx2 girl
now
both of us are changing
we been a mature...older....younger...haha~~~and sweeter~ haha
we bought a lot of stuff
++ spend a lot of money !!!die MAN!!MONEY MONEY COME BACK my side~~
i MISS YOU
sorry for my buddies ...afternoon received a message from jp about sunway journey
ru cant go with you alls le..
friday busy on tuition..and saturday need go practice our show...++ NO MONEY~
SORRY GUYS


turn back
haha~~
like my stuff so much
anti lala style!!!!
away from me!!hate it~~saw a 'LALA' passed from me
i was been sad for her/him and will pray for them..to improving themselve
sorry!!!i need improve too....and need a lot of MONEY to buy my stuff!!haha==
omg~~who married with me must so pity!!!ha

me and laopo^^
laopo me darmiss
love you 2 alotlotlot~~
muwars

sorry for my prince
ru din beside of you when you sad or moody...
be happy..any bad/sad thing has gone

TERRIBLE

现在的治安不好了
大家要小心哦
星期六大白天的早上
友仔们都累垮了准备回家休息
怎知？？！？？
一出校门，三位男生被一帮人打劫。
我当时不在场，如果在场。。也恐怕~~！呵~~好可怕
所幸三位男的都没事，电话没了。。不过还给他们楱了一拳！！！
真是你他妈的！老娘生气了！！！抢就抢还打人！！！！

晚上
我回去了一趟
很害怕
很害怕
我哭
哭惨了。是因为我害怕！

。。。。。
过去就让它过去。。。。。。

魔鬼训练

累
好久都没这种感觉了
汗流地不停
伏地挺身的惩罚
噢~~！！
爽啊？？
很累
很累

两个礼拜的假期完全献给它了==
我没时间

预定的事都无法照常进行了
随便噜~反正还是一个人啊。

一切只能说自己太坦白不会撒谎

看见你们对我那么好
我会。。。。
sorry

6.30

现在是六点半了
家里还是我一个人，空虚感？？
已经两天了。。
好不习惯睡前没有你的信息。

该后就后，该前就前